Things I love, just love:
Animals
Documentaries
Some Family
Most Food
All cats & chocolate
News
Interesting Facts
Spiritual conversations
Plants in my house
Trees in the streets
Nature at just a 15 minute walk from my house
Organic anything
Ecofriendly anything
Things I love doing:
Travel, any place new
Eat, anything without meat/seafood
Make walks in a green environment
Have drinks with friends
Enjoying a clean and structured home
Reading, trillers, biographies, essays or novels
Laughing
Talking
Dancing every now and than
Discussing important issues
Things I love sharing:
Laugher
Meals
Thoughts
My opinions
Enthousiasm
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
My Friends
Ever since I can remember I have always been kinda selective in the people I dealt with. During primairy school I wasn't that populair but eighter the one that was bullied. I had a few friends that I was really close with and during high school I still hung out with them. Right now I only see few of them regularly (in this case: once to 3 times a year).
During High school I had some good friends. Only two of them stayed friends and are the ones I'm really close to.
My jobs have also been an addition to my social life. My gay best friend was my collegue ones. And my current job has really upgraded my social life!
My college years made me have some good friends but only one remained.
My current education is full of nice people but I don't concider somebody as a close friend.
So: My Friends
Kyli: Highschool friend since 14 or 15 years old. Lives in the city of my high school. We visite each other regularly (at least ones a month). Just bought her own apartment. Has 4 cats, which I adore!! Is currently a truckdriver but has ambitions to change her job. We went to the UK and Hungary together and she also is really into travelling, which I really like. She is a very relaxed girl, talks calm and slowly which makes her the opposite of me. She is spiritual which makes her mysterious and interesting at the same time. Always has good advices and someone I can really count on.
Simone: Highschool friend since the age of 14 or 15 years. Also lived in the city of my high school. Currently lives in the City of her University of Applied Science, which is another one than mine. Loves dogs, is vegetarian too. Has some troubles with her parents/family as well. Has negative image about herself and goes to counselling as well. We do the girly stuff together. Go to the sauna, paint each others hair, give beauty and fashion advices to each other. I when on several holidays with her. We visited Turkey, Czech, Egypt, Slovakia (with a day of Vienna!!), and Poland together.
At the moment she'd let me know that she needs times of her own and she sometimes is really bugged by my behaviour and attitude. She also has her own goals and challenges and wants to cope with that on her own. I was very said to hear so but I want to give her the space that she needs and I wait to be reunited in the future.
Lincoln: My gay best friends. Lives with his boyfriend of over three years an hour away from me. During my study in France he visited me and we both like a good glass of wine. He is a very decent and friendly person. He can be hysterical, fun and a joy as well as a real help and advising person. Happy to have him!
Amber: My friend since my first college year of Social Work. Since I was 18 years old. Haven't seen her for over five years, sometimes we are not in contact for one year. Right now we regularly call and chat together. We both like to TALK! And analyse everthing about our boys, lovelife, sex, marriage, cheating, parents, troubles, work, collegues, flirts, going out, drugs, etc. etc. etc. We are just CRAZY when it comes to talking and exchanging information! She's cool!
Samira: Is my Maroccan friend. She lives few cities away from me, we are friends that see each other just few times a year but we really like hanging out together. I met her during my first Social Work internship. The internship wasn't that successfull but this friendship lasted.
My Collegues:
Sharon, Jade, Simone, Romina, Herbert, Jan-Wouter, Whitney, Dave, Tamara, Yarima.
Few times a year I invite my collegues for drinks and bites at my place. It is always so much fun. When Sharon had her first apartment I visited her in her town. When Jade switched rooms in the same city I checked it out. Tamara had dinner at my place once and Yarima even did few times. Romina is the one that quite at my job a few years ago. She doesn't wanna be part in the job-events anymore but she visites me few times a year. I was at Simone's graduation party years ago at her place and we went out for drinks in the city ones. These are all just very nice people that I share with!
During High school I had some good friends. Only two of them stayed friends and are the ones I'm really close to.
My jobs have also been an addition to my social life. My gay best friend was my collegue ones. And my current job has really upgraded my social life!
My college years made me have some good friends but only one remained.
My current education is full of nice people but I don't concider somebody as a close friend.
So: My Friends
Kyli: Highschool friend since 14 or 15 years old. Lives in the city of my high school. We visite each other regularly (at least ones a month). Just bought her own apartment. Has 4 cats, which I adore!! Is currently a truckdriver but has ambitions to change her job. We went to the UK and Hungary together and she also is really into travelling, which I really like. She is a very relaxed girl, talks calm and slowly which makes her the opposite of me. She is spiritual which makes her mysterious and interesting at the same time. Always has good advices and someone I can really count on.
Simone: Highschool friend since the age of 14 or 15 years. Also lived in the city of my high school. Currently lives in the City of her University of Applied Science, which is another one than mine. Loves dogs, is vegetarian too. Has some troubles with her parents/family as well. Has negative image about herself and goes to counselling as well. We do the girly stuff together. Go to the sauna, paint each others hair, give beauty and fashion advices to each other. I when on several holidays with her. We visited Turkey, Czech, Egypt, Slovakia (with a day of Vienna!!), and Poland together.
At the moment she'd let me know that she needs times of her own and she sometimes is really bugged by my behaviour and attitude. She also has her own goals and challenges and wants to cope with that on her own. I was very said to hear so but I want to give her the space that she needs and I wait to be reunited in the future.
Lincoln: My gay best friends. Lives with his boyfriend of over three years an hour away from me. During my study in France he visited me and we both like a good glass of wine. He is a very decent and friendly person. He can be hysterical, fun and a joy as well as a real help and advising person. Happy to have him!
Amber: My friend since my first college year of Social Work. Since I was 18 years old. Haven't seen her for over five years, sometimes we are not in contact for one year. Right now we regularly call and chat together. We both like to TALK! And analyse everthing about our boys, lovelife, sex, marriage, cheating, parents, troubles, work, collegues, flirts, going out, drugs, etc. etc. etc. We are just CRAZY when it comes to talking and exchanging information! She's cool!
Samira: Is my Maroccan friend. She lives few cities away from me, we are friends that see each other just few times a year but we really like hanging out together. I met her during my first Social Work internship. The internship wasn't that successfull but this friendship lasted.
My Collegues:
Sharon, Jade, Simone, Romina, Herbert, Jan-Wouter, Whitney, Dave, Tamara, Yarima.
Few times a year I invite my collegues for drinks and bites at my place. It is always so much fun. When Sharon had her first apartment I visited her in her town. When Jade switched rooms in the same city I checked it out. Tamara had dinner at my place once and Yarima even did few times. Romina is the one that quite at my job a few years ago. She doesn't wanna be part in the job-events anymore but she visites me few times a year. I was at Simone's graduation party years ago at her place and we went out for drinks in the city ones. These are all just very nice people that I share with!
My Work
To make money, be independent, have a life other than study and friends, contribute to the society and have something to spend are all things that are very important to me.
Since I was thirteen I've been working. First little jobs, later some more interesting things followed. I started harvesting apples at a local farmer. I hated it and it only lasted a few weeks. Than I started to stocking shelves at our local growsery store. I liked this more but because a surgery (I will tell you more about that later) I had to quite and afterwards I didn't returned.
Later in life around 15 years old I was a cassier in a shop with electronics and got fired after six months, I worked in a clothingshop when a was about 17 years old but they had to save money and I had to quite as well. Every summer I had another job in cafetaria's and restaurants and at many places I was done after 5 or 6 weeks, no problem in a maximum 8 weeks summer break. But the employers were also always done with me. Not that good for your confidence. Nevertheless, at the moment I have a job for over 7 years at the same place. I like the job, the collegues and the work I have to do isn't that boring. I can do it on my own and don't have to work as a group. I guess that works for me. I have quite some friends that I got to know from this company. Even though the situation changed at my job and the manager got replaced and isn't that nice as the one we had before. I'm happy with this job.
But, because situations change and a lot of nice people left the job or graduated, moved to another city and the ambiance now changed with a lot of new people, I applied for a new job. Right now, just for two weeks during the Christmas holiday I work at an office with a wage that is a staggering 25% higher than I'm used to. It is not busy at all which gives me the oppertunity to start this blog. Great don't you think?!
Right now, to be honest, I really do need to work a lot to at least pay my bills. The past five years I'm living on the edge and don't spend more than 200€ a month for food, clothes, train/bus tickets, presents, charity.
Since one and a half year I have my own apartment without any roommates. This also had a huge impact on my savings, the floors, the curtains, the paintings everything. Plus my running costs really increased. Because I'm a fulltime student it hardly ever happends that I can work two days or more a week. And if I can I will be totally occupied and feel resistent to do anything else than take a shower and go to sleep at the end of the day/week. I really have to work at least 16 hours a week to keep up, and in a few months from now at least 25 hours. It is impossible...
Since I was thirteen I've been working. First little jobs, later some more interesting things followed. I started harvesting apples at a local farmer. I hated it and it only lasted a few weeks. Than I started to stocking shelves at our local growsery store. I liked this more but because a surgery (I will tell you more about that later) I had to quite and afterwards I didn't returned.
Later in life around 15 years old I was a cassier in a shop with electronics and got fired after six months, I worked in a clothingshop when a was about 17 years old but they had to save money and I had to quite as well. Every summer I had another job in cafetaria's and restaurants and at many places I was done after 5 or 6 weeks, no problem in a maximum 8 weeks summer break. But the employers were also always done with me. Not that good for your confidence. Nevertheless, at the moment I have a job for over 7 years at the same place. I like the job, the collegues and the work I have to do isn't that boring. I can do it on my own and don't have to work as a group. I guess that works for me. I have quite some friends that I got to know from this company. Even though the situation changed at my job and the manager got replaced and isn't that nice as the one we had before. I'm happy with this job.
But, because situations change and a lot of nice people left the job or graduated, moved to another city and the ambiance now changed with a lot of new people, I applied for a new job. Right now, just for two weeks during the Christmas holiday I work at an office with a wage that is a staggering 25% higher than I'm used to. It is not busy at all which gives me the oppertunity to start this blog. Great don't you think?!
Right now, to be honest, I really do need to work a lot to at least pay my bills. The past five years I'm living on the edge and don't spend more than 200€ a month for food, clothes, train/bus tickets, presents, charity.
Since one and a half year I have my own apartment without any roommates. This also had a huge impact on my savings, the floors, the curtains, the paintings everything. Plus my running costs really increased. Because I'm a fulltime student it hardly ever happends that I can work two days or more a week. And if I can I will be totally occupied and feel resistent to do anything else than take a shower and go to sleep at the end of the day/week. I really have to work at least 16 hours a week to keep up, and in a few months from now at least 25 hours. It is impossible...
My Study
I guess, and hope, just few of you have come such a long way and made so much bad decisions when it comes to education. Everything was kinda cool growing up, went to the same primairy school from 2 till 11 years old. High school was allready messy in the first year. First went to the higher level of high school, than in the second year had to switch to the lower level. When there it was all too easy but, never mind, I got my diplome. Went back to the higher level and graduated as well but it took me an extra year cuz I first did the 'lower level' of high school. After these six years I was still not willing to make a choice for college so I got on with the highest of all levels available of high school. But, after a few months I quite.
Desperate of what I wanted to do, I started to work and got help by a special agency of the government that wants to help you choice the study that fits right. Came out that 'Social Work' would be the right option for college. I thought it would be great to help people and after eight months of working (of which 10 weeks in Lloret de Mar, Spain) I started my first college year. Soon after that I went living on my own in the city of my University of Applied Science. After the first year I passed all test but one. And had to go on till the end of the second year to get my 'Propedeuse' (a paper that tells you completed the first year, you can get straight to the University afterwards). I hated it cuz I allready knew I wanna to quite. At the end of the second year I allready got myself an internship for the third year but told my parents that I would quite. They told me I should go for the internship, maybe I liked it a lot and after that year it would only be one year extra to get my bachelors degree. I agreed and started my internship but after few months I hated my education even more. I quite. After a few months of some jobs every here and there I thought that; if I would find a NICE internship, my parents could be right, and than I didn't have to start a whole new education. I started looking for an internship for the second time but too late and ended up in a place I was never interested in. Result: Quite again, this time I even tried harder and made it till end of January...
My parents were upsaid and told me they will no longer pay for any education in the future. I knew that I was going to face some hard times the upcoming years, if I would choose to really keep studying to get any degree.
I than started a training, to get at least some papers for 'a decent job'. Normally this will take 4 years, but with my High school diploma of a higher level than 'average' I could make it in one year. After that one year I decided to work for an extra 6 months before starting something new. I found 'International Business and Languages' as the perfect match.
Until now I've been a great student. Have to pay everything on my own now so I really have to work my but off otherwise I would really be dumb! But, I also really feel that this is what I really want! I got my Propedeuse straight away. The second block was also succesfull, my six months in France was a little more difficult but I passed. And now I'm in the first block of the third year. After this Christmas break I will have exams and start my specialisation. I choose Philosophy and Ethics. Things that are really interesting to me. After this I have an other period of six months abroad for my internship (English or Spanish country/company) and my final fase can also be abroad.
I really hope I will pas this education and be fine with it!! :D
Desperate of what I wanted to do, I started to work and got help by a special agency of the government that wants to help you choice the study that fits right. Came out that 'Social Work' would be the right option for college. I thought it would be great to help people and after eight months of working (of which 10 weeks in Lloret de Mar, Spain) I started my first college year. Soon after that I went living on my own in the city of my University of Applied Science. After the first year I passed all test but one. And had to go on till the end of the second year to get my 'Propedeuse' (a paper that tells you completed the first year, you can get straight to the University afterwards). I hated it cuz I allready knew I wanna to quite. At the end of the second year I allready got myself an internship for the third year but told my parents that I would quite. They told me I should go for the internship, maybe I liked it a lot and after that year it would only be one year extra to get my bachelors degree. I agreed and started my internship but after few months I hated my education even more. I quite. After a few months of some jobs every here and there I thought that; if I would find a NICE internship, my parents could be right, and than I didn't have to start a whole new education. I started looking for an internship for the second time but too late and ended up in a place I was never interested in. Result: Quite again, this time I even tried harder and made it till end of January...
My parents were upsaid and told me they will no longer pay for any education in the future. I knew that I was going to face some hard times the upcoming years, if I would choose to really keep studying to get any degree.
I than started a training, to get at least some papers for 'a decent job'. Normally this will take 4 years, but with my High school diploma of a higher level than 'average' I could make it in one year. After that one year I decided to work for an extra 6 months before starting something new. I found 'International Business and Languages' as the perfect match.
Until now I've been a great student. Have to pay everything on my own now so I really have to work my but off otherwise I would really be dumb! But, I also really feel that this is what I really want! I got my Propedeuse straight away. The second block was also succesfull, my six months in France was a little more difficult but I passed. And now I'm in the first block of the third year. After this Christmas break I will have exams and start my specialisation. I choose Philosophy and Ethics. Things that are really interesting to me. After this I have an other period of six months abroad for my internship (English or Spanish country/company) and my final fase can also be abroad.
I really hope I will pas this education and be fine with it!! :D
Here I go...
Inspired by just a few...curious who might be interested in my life.
I am 20'something girl with huge ambitious but still some shitty stuff to cope with. I still don't have my bachelor's degree so have to keep studying, the relationship with my parents could be better and my attitude sometimes even scares my best friends away from me...
Try to deal with life as it is, but letting go is sometimes so hard... I feel so much pressure to be best in all things in life. Keeping my house clean and cosy, make sure the fridge is filled with enough greens, look my best every day, go to the gym regularly, study and work (make enough money for my bills, tuition, books, food & fun). Sometimes it is too much to handle.
I take my 'challenges' (let's call it that, sounds positive) very serious and this means I'm going to councelling to get ride of my personal troubles.
Endgoal: Be Happy with myself.
Subgoals:
To mourn about the fact that my father is my father and that is what it is.
Work on my self-image, I look full of confidence even arogant on many occacions but deep down I'm scared that people will hurt me (like my father does and still do when he get's the change).
Don't have high expectations, don't ask too much from yourself. Be ok with a 6 or 7 out of 10. You don't always have to be an 8 or 9.
And the list goes on and on. Too much to even remember.
I'm in for almost two years now but had to take a break for almost 6 months for my study abroad. I hope to be totally done within 9 months from now cuz I need to go abroad again for six (maybe even 10) months.
What else can I tell about myself? I love animals, especially cats! I prefere not to eat meat or seafood. Call me vegeterian if you like. I'm into the environnement, don't have a car, recycle my paper, plastics and glass waste, love organic food, wash only fully filled machines of laundry, use eco friendly soap for my dishes/laundry, unfortunatelly don't have a diswasher arrghhh!!, vollunteer for multiple charities yearly and so on.
Questions?! Just let me know!! :D
I am 20'something girl with huge ambitious but still some shitty stuff to cope with. I still don't have my bachelor's degree so have to keep studying, the relationship with my parents could be better and my attitude sometimes even scares my best friends away from me...
Try to deal with life as it is, but letting go is sometimes so hard... I feel so much pressure to be best in all things in life. Keeping my house clean and cosy, make sure the fridge is filled with enough greens, look my best every day, go to the gym regularly, study and work (make enough money for my bills, tuition, books, food & fun). Sometimes it is too much to handle.
I take my 'challenges' (let's call it that, sounds positive) very serious and this means I'm going to councelling to get ride of my personal troubles.
Endgoal: Be Happy with myself.
Subgoals:
To mourn about the fact that my father is my father and that is what it is.
Work on my self-image, I look full of confidence even arogant on many occacions but deep down I'm scared that people will hurt me (like my father does and still do when he get's the change).
Don't have high expectations, don't ask too much from yourself. Be ok with a 6 or 7 out of 10. You don't always have to be an 8 or 9.
And the list goes on and on. Too much to even remember.
I'm in for almost two years now but had to take a break for almost 6 months for my study abroad. I hope to be totally done within 9 months from now cuz I need to go abroad again for six (maybe even 10) months.
What else can I tell about myself? I love animals, especially cats! I prefere not to eat meat or seafood. Call me vegeterian if you like. I'm into the environnement, don't have a car, recycle my paper, plastics and glass waste, love organic food, wash only fully filled machines of laundry, use eco friendly soap for my dishes/laundry, unfortunatelly don't have a diswasher arrghhh!!, vollunteer for multiple charities yearly and so on.
Questions?! Just let me know!! :D
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